Hey, Rene. Here's my update...
Once agin im reminded that ita only me amd myself alone that I need to worry about. I see tony filled with self doubt and anger more and more with Bryant's distance. Im trying not to care.. Trying not to take any pleasure in his anguish. I just need to focus on myself.
I haven't been feeling as depressed as of late. There was a morning or two where i woke up with some sadness but I did my best to keep myself busy.
Today i finally went to see Wayne and Mary. It was nice. I even had lunch with Savin.. He talked about all his projects.. It was nice. And of course with both encounters i said maybe a few sentences.
I don't talk much with anyone really.. I really don't have anything to add to conversations.. Other then just smiling and laughing at there jokes.
I feel as if i don't know enough. Unless your having a emotional problem.. I don't know anything about academia, politics, general concensus of our city and or state. Nor do i know or retain a great deal of knowledge on any pop culture. I feel sometimes that im losing my focus more and more.. Am i starting to suffer from the same things mom suffered from. Loss of concentration? Loss of functioning of her fine motor skills.. My right arm is hurting more and more and the accident i had at work didn't help.
Do i accept my fate?
Lea... Aka. Matt is coming back.. Will tell you more about that another time.
